Stressful...

This semester will definitely be THE bad semester of my college years. After this semester, I can no longer make a B or a C, Next year! ONLY A's! I need to make it to Medical School! I must!

I'm scared though, How exactly will I make it to med school? I'm so incredibly stressed out and depressed...and I realized something about myself.. When I get depressed... like seriously...deep! depressed... I start to change things about myself. like my appearance! Thursday, I decided to cut my bangs.. (I usually do, but I usually take weeks to think about it... this was an impulse decision) In sophomore year, after I got in to my car wreck... I was DEPRESSED. so I chopped off my long hair! into a BOB! ...
Now, that's drastic.
Sigh I wish I was smart. And yeah, I know I'm not COMPLETELY stupid. But honestly, I'm stupid. I don't think my brain comprehends that I could possibly need to study or SHOULD study or TRY AND DO BETTER?
Like It gives up on me.... and ARGH! I'm so frustrated!


... Enough of that, I need to be happier.
I found a song that I'm completely addicted to... it's not so much the words, but more of the background melody played by a violin and a cello.. Honestly, I love OneRepublic so much! The music soothes me, makes me calm..



Sigh, I miss playing my violin. After playing the violin for 12 years, you can't help but feel like something in your life is missing....I think my fingers tips are getting soft! OH NO~
...
Tonight was my AHPO (Asian Health Professional Organization) Banquet,
I'm a bit disappointed, because I got all dolled up...did my hair, make up, got a really cute dress..
and All we did is eat at this restaurant that was suppose to be a french teaching culinary school? The Food was pretty good, but it was cold.. so it was a bit off..

I must say though, the butternut squash soup WAS AMAZING!

 The Salad was pretty good, they added some fried goat cheese, which was ...interesting? I think it's because I'm not use to the taste, but I definitely could get use to it.

 I had ...this long name of a dish.. It was basically cayenne chicken, asparagus, and potatoes. It was a normal dish, nothing really spectacular about it... and it was cold. -_-

 This was the dessert, which I forgot what exactly it was, it was like flourless cake with chocolate mousse, which was really nice as well~

 And.. I wasn't about to waste my hard labor on make up...so I took some Selcas~

Me Trying to look cute... but I just look tired -_-

My Eye Make Up ^^

And Lastly, I love how 2NE1 keeps giving their fans wonderful music :D I love their style ^^