Insomniac

It's nearly 5 AM and I can't fall asleep. I tried soo hard! I started to listen to classical music to soothe myself, because I think I'm anxious/excited for today. Today will be the start of my Phlebotomy Technician Externship at this hospital. I really hope I do good and I hope I don't cause anybody pain when I stick them with the needle. T_T It's my goal to make sure my needle sticks are as painless as possible. I hope I don't fall asleep or get tired today... It sucks that it starts at 7:30AM. My friend who is doing it at another hospital starts at 5AM, wish I could do that...I would be there right now then!

When I was trying to fall asleep, I was thinking about a lot of stuff....like, in a couple of months I'm going to be going to California to have a "cousin reunion," and right before that I'll be going to my Orientation at UT. Exciting? Nerve-wrecking? I realized that I've gained some weight, when I tried on my old scrubs from last year and my gut was gushing out of it. How am I going to go to UT like this? or even worse California?? I'm going to try really hard for this next month to shape up as much as possible. I'm thinking of just running, sit ups, weights...everyday? but in moderation of course... and hopefully my guy friends and I will go out and play tennis and basketball more so I can be out in the sun and sweat off my nasty adipose tissues :(

And while I was listening to my classical music (The Section Quartet-A Tribute to Coldplay) I was thinking...I haven't played my violin for a long time. Why don't I start playing again? Maybe I should something more enjoyable, like this song! like this whole album! So later on this week, I will be asking my old Orch Dork friends to come and join my awesome quartet. Now hopefully, I'll be able to find the sheet music for all the songs we want to play.

Then I started thinking about my stuff in my room. I have so much shit in my room it's not even funny. The amount of useless crap (I'm a pack rat) is endless... I started thinking about what I'll actually bring with me to Austin and what I'll leave behind here... Harry Potter DVDs and books. Definitely coming with me. Make up. Most definitely. My old Korean school books. Hell the fuck no.
Then I realized how much of a waste Korean school was the last 10 years I took it at my church. Sure, I learned many basic things of writing and reading, and some speaking I guess....But I still SUCK! I am the worst Korean person ever. I can't speak my own language, isn't that a terrible crime? I mean sure, I can speak casually...for the most part I can speak... but I can't speak properly and coherently...
Understanding... I'm pretty good at that, I mean if a Korean FOB comes up to me and starts talking gibberish in Korean. I'll probably understand 90% of it, maybe 10% of it I'll use context clues and I'll be correct at the same time. So I decided that since I have so much time this summer, since I still don't have a job, I'll use the books again and teach myself Korean. I think it's a very good idea. Don't you think? haha



Next thing that popped into my head was my friend Tiffany. Man, I barely hang out with her and I miss her. So then I decided that I'll go call her up this week so we can go hang out! Maybe hit up H-Mart and make some sticker pictures, but then I realized I have no money, because I still have no job. So maybe I can do that later? Then I started thinking about my other friends: Maddy, Keelan, Christy, Jessica,  Amanda, Sara, Matthew...I barely hang out with them, and I truly miss them. So I'll set a goal for myself, I'll try my darnest to hang out with everybody. And I mean everybody! I really want to list all their names...but let's not. :D

I really miss the good old days, when I use to hang out with other people, my old friends.. It seems ages ago that I've talked to them. Everything was so carefree, but now in a less than three months, I'll be going off to Austin and I'll have to say bye to all of them. How sad. I sorta feel like crying.

BUT NO! I will make use of this summer!

Man. I really want to say everything. But...my wrist hurts. So I'm going to stop. Thanks for reading my Insomniac Post! :DD